A Heavy Baggage I Carry...

On my flight to Kolkata from New Delhi

Jan 22nd, 2018

Forgiveness is probably the most difficult thing in one’s life!

Yes, we move on, thinking the past is gone... But do we actually move on? Do we really leave the past behind? Someone who did bad to you, does the heart remember it no more? Does it not ache anymore thinking of that person or that thing that he did to you?

Yes, I pray daily and Yes, I seek forgiveness for my sins from God daily.... I’m such a sinner and still ask for forgiveness and believe that God does forgives us!

But I don’t!!

Wow...sitting on a plane, listening to music and this thought disturbs me... I have so much baggage with me!! 

People who I loved... People who I love... it still disturbs me and aches my heart thinking of what they did to me... Even if it’s been ages since something they did to me....

I just can’t forgive!!!

My craft itself doesn’t allow me to carry more than 15 kgs along, but I’ve just been carrying this heavy baggage since years and its just getting heavier...

It’s impossible to forgive!!! Oh! How things could be undone! I just cannot.... It’s me who has borne all the pain, I’ve cried, I’ve begged but they did not bother...did not listen... they did what they had to!! Even though they weren’t my enemies, but people who were so close always...

Jesus says, “Come to me, all who are heavy laden and I will give you rest”

Have I given my all to Jesus? If so, then why do I still get disturbed? Its a question to ask oneself again - Have I given my all to Jesus? There can be only 2 answers, either a Yes or a No. If No, you know what needs to be done! If Yes, then we constantly need to hide ourselves in the Lord, as the devil prowls like a Lion to devour us. And brings thoughts like we cannot do this and we cannot do that... that we cannot forgive!! But the Bible says, “I can do everything through Christ, who strengthens me!” Its not by my strength but by God’s might, I can do everything!

And Forgive too! And you know why? Because “Jesus died for me while I was still a sinner”... He forgave even when I didn’t ask for forgiveness, even while I didn’t even bother if I was doing wrong...while I was actually doing wrong...into sin!!

If Jesus can, I being the daughter of Christ can too... in Him and through Him!!

This craft still allows to carry a baggage of 15 kgs, but Jesus has set me free... He has taken all my baggage on Himself on my flight to heaven... to give me His peace—the peace that surpasses all understanding!!

Forgiveness is not easy!! But if put forward into God’s hands, it’s nothing!

Why not then hand over the baggage to who can carry with all willingness and so much love?