We wonder what we should be doing in so many circumstances. We also feel victim of so many things. We feel as if it should not have happened and it would have been better without that incident in our life.
It is weird as I am growing I really feel matured and more connected to the people older to me.
When they tell about their incidents I feel so common in this common world...where I thought it's only me.
To connect with this thought when hard times come in our lives which we feel beyond our limit to handle, the first question that comes in our minds is "Why me?"
I did that for almost every difficult situation in my life. Its crazy at times or should I say every time I was in a difficult situation.
It is very human to think that. The reason is simple and I'm sure everybody would agree to that its because in difficult time we cannot keep our eyes, ears, nose, and all out senses away from the thought of that situation. No matter how hard we try to forget it, we forget we are still remembering it when trying to forget it!! I think I do make sense somewhere!!
It doesn't even take breaks like a pendulum but rather gongs like an alarm bell!
We feel so down in the pit and we feel how can that ever happen to me! I mean I was never mean to anyone...I never pick-pocketed anyone! Why was I the victim?
Its a pitiful situation for anyone of us....
Its killing!
Its disgusting!
I have been through all this and am sure almost all of us have or will....
I never thought I would be able to come out of those times!!
Someone close said to me one day when once I was very depressed[and mind you really deeply depressed], that "Nothing is permanent....".... I thought " Yeah right, nothing is permanent.... My happiness went away as it wasn't permanent".... And just then she added, "....this time will also go....this sad time is not permanent"....Wow! Optimism!
Simple words are more effective! It gave me a lot of strength....
2 years past this conversation....things were still the same and actually even worse....BUT....yes... I knew Nothing is permanent...things will change!
We depend so much on ourselves!
I was so much confident of everything I accomplished in my life.... So confident that I never gave up and became a proud self!
So confident....and when one day when the table turned, I couldn't think of even one single reason to explain myself "Why me?"
To make the answer known, I was put into better[read more worse] situations...
I had nothing!
I became nothing!
The proud self had nothing proud and no self!
All I had was nothing actually....
When you empty yourself....He fills you with a fresh living water!
He is Jesus!
And that's what He was so longing for.... For me to empty myself...
He timed everything for me...
Relaxing times....Hard times....Struggling times....Crying times....Happy times....
When I hear people telling their testimonies, I feel so common and feel happy about it because its good to be common to be loved by Jesus.... It makes me feel a sense of happiness to see the count of such commons increasing!
And that's what we all are called for...through different paths He has set for us....leading to and help others being led to the common destination--heaven!
Today I feel so blessed and thankful for all the hardships and struggles.... If they were not there, I would have never been able to empty myself and know what was in store for me--to be filled with the Living water!
I thank God for loving me so much!
And for promising me one thing which actually is permanent...my place in heaven!
It is weird as I am growing I really feel matured and more connected to the people older to me.
When they tell about their incidents I feel so common in this common world...where I thought it's only me.
To connect with this thought when hard times come in our lives which we feel beyond our limit to handle, the first question that comes in our minds is "Why me?"
I did that for almost every difficult situation in my life. Its crazy at times or should I say every time I was in a difficult situation.
It is very human to think that. The reason is simple and I'm sure everybody would agree to that its because in difficult time we cannot keep our eyes, ears, nose, and all out senses away from the thought of that situation. No matter how hard we try to forget it, we forget we are still remembering it when trying to forget it!! I think I do make sense somewhere!!
It doesn't even take breaks like a pendulum but rather gongs like an alarm bell!
We feel so down in the pit and we feel how can that ever happen to me! I mean I was never mean to anyone...I never pick-pocketed anyone! Why was I the victim?
Its a pitiful situation for anyone of us....
Its killing!
Its disgusting!
I have been through all this and am sure almost all of us have or will....
I never thought I would be able to come out of those times!!
Someone close said to me one day when once I was very depressed[and mind you really deeply depressed], that "Nothing is permanent....".... I thought " Yeah right, nothing is permanent.... My happiness went away as it wasn't permanent".... And just then she added, "....this time will also go....this sad time is not permanent"....Wow! Optimism!
Simple words are more effective! It gave me a lot of strength....
2 years past this conversation....things were still the same and actually even worse....BUT....yes... I knew Nothing is permanent...things will change!
We depend so much on ourselves!
I was so much confident of everything I accomplished in my life.... So confident that I never gave up and became a proud self!
So confident....and when one day when the table turned, I couldn't think of even one single reason to explain myself "Why me?"
To make the answer known, I was put into better[read more worse] situations...
I had nothing!
I became nothing!
The proud self had nothing proud and no self!
All I had was nothing actually....
When you empty yourself....He fills you with a fresh living water!
He is Jesus!
And that's what He was so longing for.... For me to empty myself...
He timed everything for me...
Relaxing times....Hard times....Struggling times....Crying times....Happy times....
When I hear people telling their testimonies, I feel so common and feel happy about it because its good to be common to be loved by Jesus.... It makes me feel a sense of happiness to see the count of such commons increasing!
And that's what we all are called for...through different paths He has set for us....leading to and help others being led to the common destination--heaven!
Today I feel so blessed and thankful for all the hardships and struggles.... If they were not there, I would have never been able to empty myself and know what was in store for me--to be filled with the Living water!
I thank God for loving me so much!
And for promising me one thing which actually is permanent...my place in heaven!
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